Release date: March 4, 2022
“I Don’t Want To Be Here” by “Saven” is about deciding not to put up with emotional abuse. It is about drawing the line and not accepting any guilt-tripping, blaming, aggressive behavior, gaslighting/crazy-making or other unhealthy manipulative behaviors. A feeling of controlled frustration and firm resolve is infused into the lyrics and you can almost feel the intense and demanding conversation about to be had. The “camel’s back” has long been broken and now clearly something is going to be done about it.
The song starts with some bright and sharp tones from an electric guitar, that almost give the impression of a sigh. Soon thereafter, vocals sung through gritted teeth, are introduced in a clear, calm and unsmiling manner. One of not putting up with anymore shit and enough is enough. The message is really hit home when the heavy tones of the bass guitar and the softly tapped drums weigh in.
For those who are in or have been in an emotionally abusive relationship of any kind (be at work, with family, friends, or a romantic one), this single really strikes a chord. Our relationships with other people are what are most important to us and if a relationship is causing a lot of stress, fear, anxiety, frustration, anger and exhaustion, then obviously we do not feel good and something has got to change. The track focuses on toxic relationships, emotional abuse and makes me ask myself why am I still here, especially if “I don’t want to be here”? Listen here!